This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.
Ok ok! Lam ko pilit nyong inaalala kung san nyo unang narinig ang quotation marks na yan. Yes, tumpak! Sa blockbuster na The Matrix at ito'y winika ni Morpheus ke Neo (played by Lawrence Fishburne and Keannu Reeves respectively). Pero teka hindi sa movie review ang tema ng blog na ito. Pasakalye lang un..kumbaga agaw pansin hehehe.
Actually me kinalaman ito sa blog ng kapwa kong OFW na si Jayson na hanga ako sa kasipagan sa regular na pagbablog dito. Katunayan naaaliw ako sa mga entries niya na nagsisilbi lagi ito either pampawala-homesick o pampawala antok. Ehe...sorry pre baka mali na naman ang maging impression ng ilan sa makakabasa ng blog na ito na masasarap ang buhay ng mga OFWs sa ibang bansa at nakukuha pang antukin sa workplace. Hahaha. Pampabuhay dugo ang ibig ko sabihin sa mga comments ko. Totoo ung cnasabi ni Jayson. Katunayan first time lang nya mangibang bayan para magwork at first time rin nya mangibang bayan for that matter. So lahat2 ng ito'y first time sa kanya kasama na rin ang hard choice nilang mag-asawa na mawalay sa isa't isa sa kabila ng wala pang one year nagsasama sa iisang bubong bilang husband-and-wife. Anyway congrats to you Jayson for you are now a father of twin sons. Nakupo lalo atang kinuryente ka ng homesick.
But I think Jayson is just one of the thousands of young Filipino fathers who made the hard choice of working abroad so that they can provide a better future for their families. They took the red pill and saw how deep the rabbit hole was. Tulad ko rin several years back. Magti-three years old yung panganay namin ng iwan ko ang mag-ina ko to work in China. I could have taken the blue pill and just worked locally and the story ends there. But in reality the story goes on to the next chapter and the next and the next until it ends with your last breath. So I took the red pill, face reality that life is going to be tough no matter what. Thanks to the current technology, sa dami ng sari-saring means of communication hindi na ganun kahirap ang maging homesick. Anjan ung cellphone, internet, yahoo messenger with voice, facebook (with all the kodakan ng gimiks...hoy pampaalis homesick rin un noh!) Pero sa totoo lang grabe talaga feeling ng homesick sa unang alis. Parang malalagutan ka ng hininga ang pakiramdam.
Para sa kin, agree ako ke Jayson. Mas mainam na rin na ipublish na lang sa facebook kung ano ung mga masasayang thoughts not necessarily with matching happenings. Cmpre d rin natin maiiwasan ung maging pensive moods natin paminsan2 but to me I'll just keep it within the circle of my family and close friends. Kung ipublish ko man ginagawa ko namang poetic and metaphoric. Better leave my readers confused than sentimental. Besides makikita mo ang spontaneous influx ng concerns sa mga social networking sites twing me sasapit na matinding trials tulad nung Ondoy last year at Haiti earthquake just recently. So for now we are in desperate need of seeing more smiling faces. At the end of the day even if I choose to worry sometimes, I realize nakakapagod din pala. Mas walang kapaguran ung thinking positive and laughing your hearts out. Hahaha!
